Title: This Darkness Mine
Author: Mindy McGinnis
Genre: Young Adult, Contemporary, Mystery/Thrillers
Publisher: Katherine Tegen Books
Publication date: October 10th, 2017
Sasha Stone knows her place—first-chair clarinet, top of her class, and at the side of her oxford-wearing boyfriend. She’s worked her entire life to ensure that her path to Oberlin Conservatory as a star musician is perfectly paved.
But suddenly there’s a fork in the road, in the shape of Isaac Harver. Her body shifts toward him when he walks by, her skin misses his touch even though she’s never known it, and she relishes the smell of him—smoke, beer, and trouble—all the things she’s avoided to get where she is. Even worse, every time he’s near Sasha, her heart stops, literally. Why does he know her so well—too well—and she doesn’t know him at all?
Sasha discovers that her by-the-book life began by ending another’s: the twin sister she absorbed in the womb. But that doesn’t explain the gaps of missing time in her practice schedule or the memories she has of things she certainly never did with Isaac. As Sasha loses her much-cherished control, her life—and heart—become more entangled with Isaac. Armed with the knowledge that her heart might not be hers alone, Sasha must decide what she’s willing to do—and who she’s willing to hurt—to take it back.
“I had a sister,” I say, all the edge out of my voice; the low notes of a secret slipping out throb in my chest. “She was never born, and she never died.”
Boy, oh, boy, wasn’t this book everything I wanted it to be without really realising it! This novel was incredible. When I first read the synopsis I didn’t know I would enjoy it as much as I did, but turns out I actually did. It surprised me, because I didn’t expect it to be that dark and twisted, but let me tell you: I loved every single part of it.
I’ve read last year her other work, The Female of the Species and I adored her writing, the whole story and the characters (you should read it if you haven’t already), so I was really anticipating this book ever since I knew about it, so I was beyond excited when the publisher gave me an ARC of it. And she did not disappoint me. At all.
This is a book I would recommend going into it as blind as possible, or knowing the least you can, because I feel everything could be a potential spoiler, so if you’re midly interested in it just read it. That’s how it’s going to surprise you the most.
“I love how it looks so complicated, spikes of silver flaring, empty holes of nothingness, a mass of wood and metal that almost seems vicious until you hear its voice. Low. Melodic. Lulling. It can convince you of anything if you listen to it long enough.”
Now, I can tell you now this is not a book for everyone, that’s for sure. It’s one of those book where you’re confused the whole time and don’t really know what’s going on until the very end, but luckily it was the kind of novel I usually adore, so I had a really good time reading it.
The story was so much darker that I first thought it was going to be. I loved how you spent the whole book trying to figure out everything whilst knowing more about our main character Sasha, and what was going on with her. It was a very unique story, that’s for sure. I feel Sasha was a very unreliable narrator (you know how much I LIVE for those stories), where you start knowing little of her and then it got so intricate and dark and messed up you didn’t know who to believe.
But let’s talk about Sasha, shall we? She was a very interesting main character, and a very unreliable one, like I mentioned before. She was so intelligent and clever I was shocked sometimes by her. Of course there were a few things I wanted an answer to, but overall reading from her point of view was an experience (as if that could sum things up *laughs*).
“People are always surprised when roses have a few thorns, like the girls who wear khakis and live with our natural hair color aren’t ever going to bite.”
I’m not the type of person that reads a book and pays a lot of attention to the writing. Of course, there are certain ocassions when the writing is exquisite and I can’t help but notice (or completely the opposite), and I need to talk about it in my reviews. And this is one of those cases. I loved the writing. It fit so well with the whole story and the personality of our main character. It was sexy, cold and dark, and somehow it created a barrier between the reader and the story, without isolating you from the story (it’s really hard to explain with words but hopefully you know what I mean). It was provoking the reader throughout the entire book and made you want to keep reading, and that’s one of the best things a writing style could make you feel, at least in my opinion.
The ending somehow surprised me quite much. Even though I expected some twisted things happening, and had a clear image of what was going on, there was a certain scene that left me speechless, because even though I suspected it, I didn’t know I was right. It was a very open ending, though, but you could imagine the direction it was going to take, which I didn’t mind at all. Open endings tend to give me a punch in the gut, and it was quite fitting to the story.
I recieved an ARC of this book in exchange for an honest review. This doesn’t change my opinion whatsoever. All thoughts are my own.
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